Fear

I'm afraid that i will fall..

But somehow i'm more afraid to feel that i cannot love again ..

I'm afraid that if i let go now i won't be able to see you again ..

But i still am not ready and i know that you understand and i know that it takes time ..

I hope that you understand that no matter how far i go with this there is always a part of me that will still think of him..

And only now i'm feeling the void that cannot be expressly explained..

What is it with this stupid feeling of emptiness ?

Fuck all this.

I want to learn to know how to love someone again.